My Grandma Juz Passed Away...

It hve been a long time tat i cried like tis liao...

I am supposed to work 7pm shift today. I wake up veri early today for breakfast, after tat, i tok out my PlayStation 2 for some playing. I played until near 12 noon, den i decided to stop playing, n go for my lovely nap. At tis moment, my handphone rang. It was from my 6th Uncle. He told mi tat Grandma was breathing veri painfully in hospital now, n urged us all to come down to Tan Tock Seng now.

I woke up the whole family, n off we go to visit Grandma...
Grandma's condition is veri bad & unstable. She had many tubes jabbed into her hands n legs. I remember my Grandma, used to be a plump gorgerous kind lady. Now, wat i see, she looks veri thin in front of mi. Her hands, her legs, all shrinked to the size of her bones... Her body, her waist, i'm afraid is far more thinner den mine. She used to hve waist 40 in the past. It awefully hurts mi deep into my heart to see her current condition. Everyone was not crying at tat moment. So do i. Coz everyone still believe she still hve the will to fight against the death monster.

Standing in front of her, i reali dunno wat to say. All my uncles, n aunties, n all my cousins came down. There was tis moniter there, showing some jumping values, wif a heart logo at the side. I assumed tis monitor display Grandma's heart beat value. Tis value keeps on dropping below 40, n the machine keeps on beeping... All of us r there, but we reali dunno wat to do... Onli the doctors n nurses noes how to do...

I call my Manager, tat i be late for my shift. He told mi wat i'm supposed to do for tis shift time. Initially, i supposed to work at 7pm, den i made up my mind, to arrive there at 11pm... I strongly needs some sleep, be4 i can go to work. I decided to leave at ard 4pm... My mom told mi, she will update mi Grandma's condition along...

Back home to sleep... Wasn't a good sleep... At ard 6pm, Mom called mi, says Grandma is abt time to go. I reali dunno why... Tears juz keep on rolling down my cheeks... It juz won't stop... I dunno why... Even now, when i'm typing tis, my tears keep weting my eyes... I call my Manager, telling him tat i'm unable to work today, coz the doctor says my Grandma is abt time to go... I brush my teeth, anyhow get changed, n off i go. I tok cab to hospital. Even when i'm flaging for taxi, i noe my eyes r wet... So i dare not to flag for taxi near the bus stop...

I pick up my mood & mind when i reached the hospital. Grandma's bed area, was blocked wif curtains. I heard the conversation between the nurse-sister and my uncles. She said they could no longer detect Grandma's breathing & heart beat, but the computer beside, still showing the detections of slight heart beat. She said Grandma is actually in heavens liao, but the monitor still picks up heart beats. When the monitor display a straight line, the hospital will offically declared Grandma as passing away... Hearing tis news, i dashed straight to see Grandma... They hve removed the mask on her face liao... Indeed, she was not breathing anymore. Earlier, i can still see her breathing hard wif her mouth... Now is no more liao... Her face is in veri bad shape... Like juz fought a hard battle until her face was disfigured... I hve told myself not to cry there... But when i open mouth to call Grandma... My tears juz burst out again... I'm still such a cry baby in front of Grandma at tis moment...

My elder sister & i were the eldest of all Grand-children... And since i'm the male, tat made mi as the "Zhang Sun"... My uncles wanted mi to tok to Grandma, telling her tat we r all doing well, tell her not to worry n let go, go back into her sleep peacefully... I tried my veri best to say out these words... But looks like all my words r kana distorted by my crying tone...

And when the monitor went straight line, declaring Grandma as offically passed away... My aunties there, cried veri sadly... My Grandpa who was waiting outside sadly... came in, burst into tears away... crying veri terribly... My Grandma's sisters who arrived... all cried along... The mood, the atmosphere, suddenly became so sad...

I remember, when i'm small, i like to eat one kind of fish, by steaming... Sorri tat i didn't make a effort at all, to find out the name of tis fish for so many years... It's triangle in shape, n is veri common in market. Grandma, said tat fish is veri expensive, but she's willingly to cook for mi, as long as i like to eat tat. Everytime, she will steam two of tat fish... One for the entire family, the other one, solely for mi... Though i hve not eat tat fish, cook by Grandma, since i go for poly schooling... I still miss tis dish speciality from Grandma... And now, she's gone...