Down Down Down...

My mood is realli veri down yesterday...
Or should i say veri down in tis week...

A lot of things tat makes mi feeling uneasy, unhappy, disappointed, confused, in dilema... etc...

Yesterday, i need to make a decision for a veri difficult situation. If i choose not to do it, letting the morning shift plp to do it, i will be sabo-ing them... Not juz a simple sabo, IS A DREADFUL SABO. But if i choose to do it, n if i make the wrong choice, i may end up wasting a roll of material tat cost hundreds over bucks... Boss will not hestiate tis time to order mi to compensate for it... Feeling unhappy, confused, tired, mind-block at tat point of time. The first thing tat comes into my mind tis mind, surprisingly, is not the feeling of quiting... So wat is my final decision...

Don't do, sabo morning shift colleagues. Do, but wrong, will oso sabo morning shift colleague. And may oso need to pay money. So i ended up, still do it... Try my luck n skills tis time. Hundreds over bucks, so wat... If i make the wrong decision, n result mi to pay for the losses... Den pay lor... wat's so big deal abt it. I scare u huh...

Until now, while i'm typing tis blog, still no morning shift colleague call mi to question mi abt yesterday stuffs... so i tink should be safe until now...

And wat's other things tat make mi mood for tis week feeling sick...???

They are :
Dunno how to start?
Dunno how to ask?
Dunno wat to do?
Dunno how to do?
Dunno wat to say?
Dunno how to plan?
Dunno wat's to bring up?
Dunno who should be the one?
Dunno wat to do if the reply is negative?
Dunno am i still honest anot?
Dunno if i'm still telling lies?

Feeling alone!
Feeling outcast!
Feeling crazy!
Feeling insane!

But I hate crowds...

To be honest, i dun like to rush the production of bearing fruits. Coz i hve bad experience. Juz happen in tis year. I happen to over-reacted, resulting the fruit to over-ripe... turn sour in the end. I feeling veri heart-pain cum broken for not planning well my schedule on tis fruit. A valuable lesson learnt. Thus, for tis time round, i dun plan to over-react yet. Make everything runs smoothly along the tracks... But am i doing anything yet... Nope! Coz i'm still troubled by the question-marks above.